what prompted me to start this blog is the fact that I have always been confused throughout my life.I might start things with much enthusuiasm but like the way leaves fall from the branches in autumn my enthusiam also suffers a silent death by the time its autumn arrives.
sometimes I feel that as a human being we are never given anytime to evolve.we are never allowed to think and act in the way we want to. we are always busy thinking for others. infact we live for others. we have somebody who is constantly guinding us rather pushing us to follow them.

Our parents, brothers, sisters, uncles, aunts, chaiwala, dhoodhwala, sabziwala, every tom dick & harry is giving us their valuable suggestions on the ways to improve our life.Aisa karo tum doctor ban jao bahut respectful job hai....navy officer dude..uniform ki to shaan hi alag hai..girls die on it..graduation finish hote hi hum to iski shaadi kar denge..your father has such a huge business fir kyon tu ye dus hazaar ki naukri mein apna time waste kar raha hai..tu business dekh na...ye bada hokar apne maan baap ka namm roshan karega..shaadi ko 3 saal ho gaye ab to family badhane ka socho..naak mein ghee daalne se swine flu nahi hoga..I guess you should apply red lipstick, that will definitly suit you..aisa karo......aisa mat karo....etc etc..hufff..i am tired of this endless list.
I AM CONFUSED.i have forgotton the way my brain use to work because I have been using the way society thinks for me. I have rusted my brain. even if the god decides to take away his precious 'thinking ability'from me, i guess I can survive in this world because I never used my own so called thinking ability.

Now the big question? Isme naya kya hai..ye to jag ki reet hai. hum kya kar sakte hai.Man is a social element, so to live in the society we will have to do things that please others.Aur waise bhi koi kuch accha batata hai to sunne mein kya buraai hai?
well dont confuse me with an 'anti-social' element. I too respect the world we live in. I do like the people we live with. I have been brought up in a cultured society that demands us to adhere totheir own rules and regulations. but there's something in me that forces we to lay back and think.Think about the way I have always lived my life since past 25 something years ..and the way I would want to live my life for the next say 25 years..

so when i say soaking in (as do the title of my blog), i mean I am still trying to adjust to the waysof this world. Dont call me a rebel, i am not a one, better call me an 'explorer' I will be happy tohear that.